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Welcome to Northview Church. Whether you're joining us at one of our campuses, online, or somewhere else, I'm genuinely glad you're here. I believe your presence today is not by chance—there's something God wants to do right now, something He wants to tell you that could change your life.
My name is Aaron, and I serve as the Family Ministry Pastor here, overseeing our children's ministry, youth ministry, and special needs ministry across all our campuses. I'm excited about the series we're walking through this year, looking at some of the most important stories and characters in the Bible. This weekend, we're diving into one of the most famous stories in Scripture: Jonah and the fish.
Jonah ranks among the most well-known biblical stories—alongside Noah's ark and David and Goliath. It's become a genuine cultural phenomenon. Even if you didn't grow up in church, you've likely heard of it. If you did grow up in church in the late '90s and early 2000s like I did, you probably remember the VeggieTales movie!
But here's what I want you to understand: Jonah is more than a story about a man and a fish. It's a story about running from God, getting a second chance, and discovering that God's grace is bigger than the people we think deserve it. And if we're honest, Jonah's struggle might be closer to ours than we want to admit.
Jonah was a prophet—someone whom God spoke to directly and through whom God spoke to others. His job was to listen to God and deliver His message to whoever God sent him to speak to.
Jonah lived during the reign of Jeroboam II, between 782 and 753 BC. Beyond this, we know very little about him except for the story recorded in the book of Jonah itself.
Interestingly, Jonah is mentioned only a few times in Scripture outside his book. Jesus references him when He speaks of "the sign of Jonah," using Jonah's life as a picture of His own death and resurrection. There's also one brief mention in 2 Kings 14:25.
As I was preparing this message, I was struck by how much is packed into this relatively short book. It reminded me of an air compressor—a small device that compresses a huge amount of air into a tight space.
I believe the book of Jonah is a "truth compressor." God has taken this story and packed it full of truths about life, about humanity, and about Himself. There's so much here.
I want to give you two suggestions as we study Jonah together:
First, give yourself permission to be immersed in the story. I know there are a million things happening in your life right now. You're thinking about what's coming later, commitments you have this week, projects, things you're hosting. Take a deep breath and dive into this narrative. Let yourself focus completely on what God might be trying to teach you through it.
Second, bring something to write with. I'm not asking you to write down clever quotes from me. Rather, we're going to read the entire book of Jonah from Scripture. God speaks through His Word—it's living and active. Whether this is your first time hearing Jonah's story or your thousandth time, God can reveal something to you. As we read, write down what stands out, what God highlights for you, or what you sense Him calling you to do in light of what His Word says.
Jonah 1:1-3a
"Now the word of the Lord came to Jonah the son of Amittai, saying, 'Arise, go to Nineveh, that great city, and call out against it, for their evil has come up before me.' But Jonah rose to flee to Tarshish from the presence of the Lord."
Notice the language here: God calls Jonah to arise and go to Nineveh. Jonah does arise, but he flees in the opposite direction.
God is calling him northeast to Nineveh. Jonah goes southwest to Tarshish. It's like a sign with two arrows pointing in completely opposite directions. That's Jonah's mentality—he's running away from where God wants him to go.
This raises a question: Why? What's going on in Jonah's mind? What's his motivation? We don't get that answer in chapter one, but we will later.
Jonah makes a choice. He knows what God has called him to do, but he decides to go the opposite direction. There's a favorite quote of mine that sums this up perfectly: "Well, well, well... if it isn't the consequences of my own actions."
That's exactly what happens here. Jonah makes a deliberate choice to disobey, and consequences follow.
When the storm hits and Jonah is thrown into the sea, he reaches a point of repentance. The word "repentance" literally means to turn around. You're walking in one direction, and repentance means you stop and go the opposite way.
Now, I want to be clear about something that will become more apparent as the story unfolds: I don't think this is a moment of deep, heartfelt repentance where Jonah fully grasps how wrong he's been. Rather, he takes the first necessary step in repentance—he stops running and surrenders.
As Christians, repentance is absolutely foundational to following Jesus. You cannot make Jesus your Lord and submit to His lordship without first saying, "I need to turn around from my ways." Scripture is clear: in our natural human state, our default is rebellion against God. We naturally run from the things of God.
Repentance requires us to say: "Jesus, You are now my Savior and my Lord, and I'm going to turn around and repent."
Here's something many people don't talk about when it comes to repentance: repentance can be terrifying.
Think about Jonah's moment. When he surrenders and asks the sailors to throw him into the sea, imagine the terror. He's in a boat in the middle of a storm, and he's essentially saying, "I'm going to let myself be thrown overboard." He doesn't have a confident plan. He's not thinking, "Great! Now I'll go to Nineveh!" No—he's convinced he's about to die.
Jesus captures this reality in the New Testament when He says, "If your eye causes you to stumble, pluck it out. If your hand causes you to stumble, cut it off." He's speaking metaphorically, but the point is clear: when you repent and turn from sin and rebellion, it hurts. Why? Because as humans, we build our lives around certain things. Repentance sometimes means ripping those things out.
Maybe you've been committed to an ideology or philosophy and written about it extensively, and then you realize, "If I'm going to truly follow Jesus, I need to take back all those words." That's terrifying.
Or maybe there's a behavior or addiction, and you know that following Jesus means letting it go. But how does life look without it? That's frightening.
But here's what I want to assure you: When you throw yourself on God's mercy, He is faithful to catch you. Your surrender might not look the way you expect, but He will catch you. Scripture promises, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).
Jonah 1:17 - 2:10
"And the Lord appointed a great fish to swallow up Jonah. And Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights."
In chapter two, Jonah prays a prayer of thanksgiving from inside the fish. This entire chapter is a prayer—but not the kind most people might expect at first glance.
On the surface, the story seems to say: Jonah ran, so God sent a storm. He was thrown into the sea, so God sent a fish to swallow him. Isn't that his punishment?
No. The fish was God's rescue plan.
Listen to Jonah's prayer: "I cried to the Lord in my distress, and he answered me... You cast me into the deep... Yet you brought up my life from the pit... 'Salvation belongs to the Lord!'" (Jonah 2:2-9).
Yonah is expressing profound gratitude. He thought he was done for. He thought he was going to die. And yet God saved him—miraculously, through this great fish. Jonah recognizes: "You have rescued me."
We often misinterpret God's rescue plan as punishment. Has that ever happened to you? Can you think of a time when you went through something difficult, and in the moment you thought God was punishing you, but looking back now, you realize He was actually rescuing you?
I have such a season in my own life. After I graduated from university, I had a complete plan mapped out. I was going to go into youth ministry, find a wonderful Christian woman at Taylor University, marry her, graduate, and start serving together. When I graduated, I wasn't married. I wasn't even engaged. I didn't have any serious relationships.
I moved to a new city and started ministry. And honestly, I can be stubborn. When God doesn't follow my plan, I can have a bad attitude about it. For years, I was confused. I thought, "What's going on, God? That was a good plan!" There were times I genuinely wondered, "Am I being punished? Did I do something wrong? Did I take a wrong turn?"
It took about three and a half years before my wife Courtney and I got married. There was real struggle during that season, and I misinterpreted it.
But looking back now, I can laugh at myself. I think, "Without that season, with the way everything timed out, I wouldn't have married Courtney." And I would go through that difficult time a thousand times if it meant marrying her. What I once thought was punishment, I now see clearly as God's rescue plan to get me exactly where He wanted me to be.
I wonder: Has something similar happened in your life? Could it be happening right now? This is important to reflect on because it reminds us that our vision is extremely limited, and God's vision is infinitely greater than ours.
Sometimes we misinterpret God's rescue plan as punishment.
Jonah 3:1-5
"Then the word of the Lord came to Jonah the second time, saying, 'Arise, go to Nineveh, that great city, and call out against it the call that I tell you.' So Jonah arose and went to Nineveh, according to the word of the Lord... And the people of Nineveh believed God."
This is remarkable. The call stayed the same. God didn't change the assignment because Jonah failed the first time.
This is powerful: God is in the business of second chances. Failure doesn't disqualify you from God's calling. Failure doesn't mean God is finished with you. The call remains.
Jonah obeys this time. He goes to Nineveh and preaches. And remarkably, the people repent. They believe. The whole city turns around.
But here's the thing—and this is where chapter four becomes absolutely critical to understanding the entire message of Jonah—Jonah's biggest problem isn't running away. It's what happens in his heart after he obeys.
That's where we'll pick up next, and that's where everything changes.
After Jonah obeys and Nineveh repents, we discover something crucial: Jonah's biggest problem isn't running away. It's what happens in his heart after he obeys. This is where Chapter 4 becomes absolutely critical to understanding the entire message of Jonah.
Now we know exactly why Jonah ran in the first place. Jonah tells us himself—we don't need to guess or interpret. He says directly: "God, I ran because I know who you are. I know you are compassionate. I know you are gracious, but I cannot bear the thought that Nineveh will repent and you will forgive them."
The idea of Nineveh's repentance was so unbearable to Jonah that he fled. Nineveh was one of the great cities of the Assyrian Empire—a hostile city to Israel. Jonah's perception of God was actually accurate. He knew exactly who God is. Yet he hated his enemies so much that he couldn't bear the idea of God forgiving them.
Notice something important: by the end of Chapter 3, Jonah has actually completed the task. God called him to go and preach in Nineveh. He did it. Nineveh repented. The assignment was finished.
But God wasn't finished with Jonah. In the words of the preacher: "You did what I called you to do, but I want you to become who I called you to be." God doesn't just care about our actions—He seeks our hearts. He wants to transform not just what we do, but who we are.
A clear pattern emerges throughout Jonah's story:
Jonah has fallen into a dangerous mindset: "God's grace is for me, but not for you." God's generosity is fine when it benefits him personally, but unbearable when it's extended to people he considers undeserving.
God poses a penetrating question: "Have you done well to be angry?" In other words, Why are you upset? What gives you the right to be angry about this?
God then places Jonah in a living parable. Jonah sits outside the city experiencing heat and destruction while God protects him—just as God had mercy on Nineveh. When a plant grows to shade Jonah, he's delighted. When the plant dies and he experiences discomfort, he's furious.
The irony is striking: Jonah mourns the death of a plant he didn't labor for or nurture, yet he begrudges God's mercy toward 120,000 people—not to mention the livestock.
God's final question exposes the hypocrisy: "Should I not have compassion on Nineveh, the great city, in which there are more than 120,000 people who do not know the difference between their right and left hand, and also many animals?"
It's easy to look at Jonah and say, "What's wrong with this man? What a terrible attitude." But Jonah falls into a trap common to all of us.
As human beings, we constantly convince ourselves that we know better than God. At its core, Jonah believes he knows more than God about how God should use His grace, mercy, and compassion. He essentially says: "Trust me, God. They don't deserve it."
This same issue appears in Jesus' teaching. In the Parable of the Vineyard Workers (Matthew 20), a landowner hires workers throughout the day. Some work all day; others work only the last hour. Yet he pays everyone the same wage.
The all-day workers are outraged: "You're paying them a full day's wage for one hour of work, and we worked all day!" The landowner responds with two piercing questions: "Is it not lawful for me to do what I wish with what is my own? Or is your eye envious because I am generous?" In other words: "Am I not allowed to be kind? Are you angry with me because I'm generous?"
There are three main reasons we find ourselves resenting God's grace:
1. Pride. We think, "Look at what I've done. And you're doing that for them?"
2. Envy. We say, "God, seriously? Look at how much they already have. Can't you throw me a crumb once in a while?"
3. Unforgiveness. This is often the most difficult. There are people who have hurt us so deeply that, if we're honest with ourselves, we don't wish them well. If they called to tell us that God has blessed them—financially, in their career, in their faith—we might say, "That's great," but inside we'd be thinking, "Really, God? Them?"
Here's the hard truth: You're absolutely right that they don't deserve God's grace. But neither do you.
This is where we often misunderstand grace. When we become Christians, we initially understand it perfectly: "God saved me when I didn't deserve it. He did something I could never do myself. That's amazing." But over time, as we grow in faith and serve and live differently, something shifts.
We start thinking: "I've changed. I'm living right. I'm serving others. I'm doing good things. Maybe God owes me something now. Maybe I've earned at least a little of His favor." And we lose sight of grace. We forget that we never deserved any of it to begin with.
Let this sink in:
If you find yourself envying God's generosity—if you catch yourself thinking, "I'd be angry if God were that kind to that person"—there is a solution.
The antidote to envying God's generosity is remembering how generous God has been to you.
Yes, remember the specific ways God has shown up in your life. Remember the moments when He did something only He could do. But more than that, train yourself daily to fix your eyes on the cross of Jesus Christ.
Make it a practice to contemplate the cross and remember what happened there. The God of the universe—who created everything from nothing, who depends on nothing, who is completely self-sufficient—humbled Himself and became human. He lived a life none of us could live. He died the death we deserved so we could have a life we don't deserve.
When you genuinely grasp that, when you let yourself feel the wonder and awe of it, something happens. When God is generous to someone—even someone you believe doesn't deserve it—you won't be filled with pride or grind your teeth in anger. You won't even think much about what they did. Instead, you'll think: "God was so generous to me. I know exactly what that feels like."
And you'll find yourself unable to do anything but praise God for who He is.
Because that is who God is.
Welcome to Northview Church. Whether you're joining us at one of our campuses, online, or somewhere else, I'm genuinely glad you're here. I believe your presence today is not by chance—there's something God wants to do right now, something He wants to tell you that could change your life.
My name is Aaron, and I serve as the Family Ministry Pastor here, overseeing our children's ministry, youth ministry, and special needs ministry across all our campuses. I'm excited about the series we're walking through this year, looking at some of the most important stories and characters in the Bible. This weekend, we're diving into one of the most famous stories in Scripture: Jonah and the fish.
Jonah ranks among the most well-known biblical stories—alongside Noah's ark and David and Goliath. It's become a genuine cultural phenomenon. Even if you didn't grow up in church, you've likely heard of it. If you did grow up in church in the late '90s and early 2000s like I did, you probably remember the VeggieTales movie!
But here's what I want you to understand: Jonah is more than a story about a man and a fish. It's a story about running from God, getting a second chance, and discovering that God's grace is bigger than the people we think deserve it. And if we're honest, Jonah's struggle might be closer to ours than we want to admit.
Jonah was a prophet—someone whom God spoke to directly and through whom God spoke to others. His job was to listen to God and deliver His message to whoever God sent him to speak to.
Jonah lived during the reign of Jeroboam II, between 782 and 753 BC. Beyond this, we know very little about him except for the story recorded in the book of Jonah itself.
Interestingly, Jonah is mentioned only a few times in Scripture outside his book. Jesus references him when He speaks of "the sign of Jonah," using Jonah's life as a picture of His own death and resurrection. There's also one brief mention in 2 Kings 14:25.
As I was preparing this message, I was struck by how much is packed into this relatively short book. It reminded me of an air compressor—a small device that compresses a huge amount of air into a tight space.
I believe the book of Jonah is a "truth compressor." God has taken this story and packed it full of truths about life, about humanity, and about Himself. There's so much here.
I want to give you two suggestions as we study Jonah together:
First, give yourself permission to be immersed in the story. I know there are a million things happening in your life right now. You're thinking about what's coming later, commitments you have this week, projects, things you're hosting. Take a deep breath and dive into this narrative. Let yourself focus completely on what God might be trying to teach you through it.
Second, bring something to write with. I'm not asking you to write down clever quotes from me. Rather, we're going to read the entire book of Jonah from Scripture. God speaks through His Word—it's living and active. Whether this is your first time hearing Jonah's story or your thousandth time, God can reveal something to you. As we read, write down what stands out, what God highlights for you, or what you sense Him calling you to do in light of what His Word says.
Jonah 1:1-3a
"Now the word of the Lord came to Jonah the son of Amittai, saying, 'Arise, go to Nineveh, that great city, and call out against it, for their evil has come up before me.' But Jonah rose to flee to Tarshish from the presence of the Lord."
Notice the language here: God calls Jonah to arise and go to Nineveh. Jonah does arise, but he flees in the opposite direction.
God is calling him northeast to Nineveh. Jonah goes southwest to Tarshish. It's like a sign with two arrows pointing in completely opposite directions. That's Jonah's mentality—he's running away from where God wants him to go.
This raises a question: Why? What's going on in Jonah's mind? What's his motivation? We don't get that answer in chapter one, but we will later.
Jonah makes a choice. He knows what God has called him to do, but he decides to go the opposite direction. There's a favorite quote of mine that sums this up perfectly: "Well, well, well... if it isn't the consequences of my own actions."
That's exactly what happens here. Jonah makes a deliberate choice to disobey, and consequences follow.
When the storm hits and Jonah is thrown into the sea, he reaches a point of repentance. The word "repentance" literally means to turn around. You're walking in one direction, and repentance means you stop and go the opposite way.
Now, I want to be clear about something that will become more apparent as the story unfolds: I don't think this is a moment of deep, heartfelt repentance where Jonah fully grasps how wrong he's been. Rather, he takes the first necessary step in repentance—he stops running and surrenders.
As Christians, repentance is absolutely foundational to following Jesus. You cannot make Jesus your Lord and submit to His lordship without first saying, "I need to turn around from my ways." Scripture is clear: in our natural human state, our default is rebellion against God. We naturally run from the things of God.
Repentance requires us to say: "Jesus, You are now my Savior and my Lord, and I'm going to turn around and repent."
Here's something many people don't talk about when it comes to repentance: repentance can be terrifying.
Think about Jonah's moment. When he surrenders and asks the sailors to throw him into the sea, imagine the terror. He's in a boat in the middle of a storm, and he's essentially saying, "I'm going to let myself be thrown overboard." He doesn't have a confident plan. He's not thinking, "Great! Now I'll go to Nineveh!" No—he's convinced he's about to die.
Jesus captures this reality in the New Testament when He says, "If your eye causes you to stumble, pluck it out. If your hand causes you to stumble, cut it off." He's speaking metaphorically, but the point is clear: when you repent and turn from sin and rebellion, it hurts. Why? Because as humans, we build our lives around certain things. Repentance sometimes means ripping those things out.
Maybe you've been committed to an ideology or philosophy and written about it extensively, and then you realize, "If I'm going to truly follow Jesus, I need to take back all those words." That's terrifying.
Or maybe there's a behavior or addiction, and you know that following Jesus means letting it go. But how does life look without it? That's frightening.
But here's what I want to assure you: When you throw yourself on God's mercy, He is faithful to catch you. Your surrender might not look the way you expect, but He will catch you. Scripture promises, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).
Jonah 1:17 - 2:10
"And the Lord appointed a great fish to swallow up Jonah. And Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights."
In chapter two, Jonah prays a prayer of thanksgiving from inside the fish. This entire chapter is a prayer—but not the kind most people might expect at first glance.
On the surface, the story seems to say: Jonah ran, so God sent a storm. He was thrown into the sea, so God sent a fish to swallow him. Isn't that his punishment?
No. The fish was God's rescue plan.
Listen to Jonah's prayer: "I cried to the Lord in my distress, and he answered me... You cast me into the deep... Yet you brought up my life from the pit... 'Salvation belongs to the Lord!'" (Jonah 2:2-9).
Yonah is expressing profound gratitude. He thought he was done for. He thought he was going to die. And yet God saved him—miraculously, through this great fish. Jonah recognizes: "You have rescued me."
We often misinterpret God's rescue plan as punishment. Has that ever happened to you? Can you think of a time when you went through something difficult, and in the moment you thought God was punishing you, but looking back now, you realize He was actually rescuing you?
I have such a season in my own life. After I graduated from university, I had a complete plan mapped out. I was going to go into youth ministry, find a wonderful Christian woman at Taylor University, marry her, graduate, and start serving together. When I graduated, I wasn't married. I wasn't even engaged. I didn't have any serious relationships.
I moved to a new city and started ministry. And honestly, I can be stubborn. When God doesn't follow my plan, I can have a bad attitude about it. For years, I was confused. I thought, "What's going on, God? That was a good plan!" There were times I genuinely wondered, "Am I being punished? Did I do something wrong? Did I take a wrong turn?"
It took about three and a half years before my wife Courtney and I got married. There was real struggle during that season, and I misinterpreted it.
But looking back now, I can laugh at myself. I think, "Without that season, with the way everything timed out, I wouldn't have married Courtney." And I would go through that difficult time a thousand times if it meant marrying her. What I once thought was punishment, I now see clearly as God's rescue plan to get me exactly where He wanted me to be.
I wonder: Has something similar happened in your life? Could it be happening right now? This is important to reflect on because it reminds us that our vision is extremely limited, and God's vision is infinitely greater than ours.
Sometimes we misinterpret God's rescue plan as punishment.
Jonah 3:1-5
"Then the word of the Lord came to Jonah the second time, saying, 'Arise, go to Nineveh, that great city, and call out against it the call that I tell you.' So Jonah arose and went to Nineveh, according to the word of the Lord... And the people of Nineveh believed God."
This is remarkable. The call stayed the same. God didn't change the assignment because Jonah failed the first time.
This is powerful: God is in the business of second chances. Failure doesn't disqualify you from God's calling. Failure doesn't mean God is finished with you. The call remains.
Jonah obeys this time. He goes to Nineveh and preaches. And remarkably, the people repent. They believe. The whole city turns around.
But here's the thing—and this is where chapter four becomes absolutely critical to understanding the entire message of Jonah—Jonah's biggest problem isn't running away. It's what happens in his heart after he obeys.
That's where we'll pick up next, and that's where everything changes.
After Jonah obeys and Nineveh repents, we discover something crucial: Jonah's biggest problem isn't running away. It's what happens in his heart after he obeys. This is where Chapter 4 becomes absolutely critical to understanding the entire message of Jonah.
Now we know exactly why Jonah ran in the first place. Jonah tells us himself—we don't need to guess or interpret. He says directly: "God, I ran because I know who you are. I know you are compassionate. I know you are gracious, but I cannot bear the thought that Nineveh will repent and you will forgive them."
The idea of Nineveh's repentance was so unbearable to Jonah that he fled. Nineveh was one of the great cities of the Assyrian Empire—a hostile city to Israel. Jonah's perception of God was actually accurate. He knew exactly who God is. Yet he hated his enemies so much that he couldn't bear the idea of God forgiving them.
Notice something important: by the end of Chapter 3, Jonah has actually completed the task. God called him to go and preach in Nineveh. He did it. Nineveh repented. The assignment was finished.
But God wasn't finished with Jonah. In the words of the preacher: "You did what I called you to do, but I want you to become who I called you to be." God doesn't just care about our actions—He seeks our hearts. He wants to transform not just what we do, but who we are.
A clear pattern emerges throughout Jonah's story:
Jonah has fallen into a dangerous mindset: "God's grace is for me, but not for you." God's generosity is fine when it benefits him personally, but unbearable when it's extended to people he considers undeserving.
God poses a penetrating question: "Have you done well to be angry?" In other words, Why are you upset? What gives you the right to be angry about this?
God then places Jonah in a living parable. Jonah sits outside the city experiencing heat and destruction while God protects him—just as God had mercy on Nineveh. When a plant grows to shade Jonah, he's delighted. When the plant dies and he experiences discomfort, he's furious.
The irony is striking: Jonah mourns the death of a plant he didn't labor for or nurture, yet he begrudges God's mercy toward 120,000 people—not to mention the livestock.
God's final question exposes the hypocrisy: "Should I not have compassion on Nineveh, the great city, in which there are more than 120,000 people who do not know the difference between their right and left hand, and also many animals?"
It's easy to look at Jonah and say, "What's wrong with this man? What a terrible attitude." But Jonah falls into a trap common to all of us.
As human beings, we constantly convince ourselves that we know better than God. At its core, Jonah believes he knows more than God about how God should use His grace, mercy, and compassion. He essentially says: "Trust me, God. They don't deserve it."
This same issue appears in Jesus' teaching. In the Parable of the Vineyard Workers (Matthew 20), a landowner hires workers throughout the day. Some work all day; others work only the last hour. Yet he pays everyone the same wage.
The all-day workers are outraged: "You're paying them a full day's wage for one hour of work, and we worked all day!" The landowner responds with two piercing questions: "Is it not lawful for me to do what I wish with what is my own? Or is your eye envious because I am generous?" In other words: "Am I not allowed to be kind? Are you angry with me because I'm generous?"
There are three main reasons we find ourselves resenting God's grace:
1. Pride. We think, "Look at what I've done. And you're doing that for them?"
2. Envy. We say, "God, seriously? Look at how much they already have. Can't you throw me a crumb once in a while?"
3. Unforgiveness. This is often the most difficult. There are people who have hurt us so deeply that, if we're honest with ourselves, we don't wish them well. If they called to tell us that God has blessed them—financially, in their career, in their faith—we might say, "That's great," but inside we'd be thinking, "Really, God? Them?"
Here's the hard truth: You're absolutely right that they don't deserve God's grace. But neither do you.
This is where we often misunderstand grace. When we become Christians, we initially understand it perfectly: "God saved me when I didn't deserve it. He did something I could never do myself. That's amazing." But over time, as we grow in faith and serve and live differently, something shifts.
We start thinking: "I've changed. I'm living right. I'm serving others. I'm doing good things. Maybe God owes me something now. Maybe I've earned at least a little of His favor." And we lose sight of grace. We forget that we never deserved any of it to begin with.
Let this sink in:
If you find yourself envying God's generosity—if you catch yourself thinking, "I'd be angry if God were that kind to that person"—there is a solution.
The antidote to envying God's generosity is remembering how generous God has been to you.
Yes, remember the specific ways God has shown up in your life. Remember the moments when He did something only He could do. But more than that, train yourself daily to fix your eyes on the cross of Jesus Christ.
Make it a practice to contemplate the cross and remember what happened there. The God of the universe—who created everything from nothing, who depends on nothing, who is completely self-sufficient—humbled Himself and became human. He lived a life none of us could live. He died the death we deserved so we could have a life we don't deserve.
When you genuinely grasp that, when you let yourself feel the wonder and awe of it, something happens. When God is generous to someone—even someone you believe doesn't deserve it—you won't be filled with pride or grind your teeth in anger. You won't even think much about what they did. Instead, you'll think: "God was so generous to me. I know exactly what that feels like."
And you'll find yourself unable to do anything but praise God for who He is.
Because that is who God is.
